Pretti Random Thoughts

it’s about imperfection and flaws and mistakes. it’s about the mess. love is an emotional train wreck, but i want the mess . i want the train wreck. there will be days when we are so tired of each other, when we want to throw in the towel and be done with it. there will be days when i want to wring your neck and you want to pull your hair out. sometimes i will drive you crazy, and sometimes you will annoy me to no end. we will fight and we will be frustrated. but we will also laugh and laugh and laugh. we’ll act like kids and have fun and never grow up. we will be enslaved by our passion for life and for each other . we’ll stay up late and talk about everything that makes us tick and all the things we wake up for. we’ll eat dessert first and kiss each other unexpectedly. we will explore new places and fall asleep together. fair warning— i hog the covers and i like to cuddle and sometimes i snore. i will entwine my legs with yours and we’ll dream tangled in each other. i...

“As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going.” Isn't Carrie so profound? :) The last few days have been very...interesting. Yes - interesting is a good way to sum things up. I've gone through a range of emotions over a few different situations. I actually thought that I was handling the " situation that I'm not going to blog about anymore" (ahem) pretty well...UNTIL this morning. Yanno, my buela used to always say " When you look for something, you find it" . Well, dammit - I need to tape my eyelids shut indefinitely. That is all I'm going to say about that. I've decided that I'm going to take a step back from everything & almost everyone - and breathe . While I love & adore my friends & family, I've realized that there are just some things you have to do alone.. and f...

I smiled today - like all day on the ride to work.... ...while at work after work while sipping 'buck with the girlies... just..smiled And it felt so good. The best part is - it didn't depend on another human. =)

Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. It's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. Life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. It...

First off, I must say… I’m the one with the problem… not everyone else. I’ll admit that… I’m nuts . No matter all of the bs and hurtful things that I have been through from my childhood, family, friends, and lovers, somehow I have managed to still view the world with a childlike disposition. I have feelings, I have emotions… I’m so weak with it… that I even have the nerve to share them… go figure… It’s crazy. Somehow, everyone has learned to accept that the world is a fucked up place, where everyone is out to hurt us… so you better hurt them first… or If someone hurt you, dont let them know… pretend to not feel… Someone hurt you? You better go hurt someone else! Me being the psycho that I am, I’ve never been able to get with that program… so again I admit that it's me… everyone else gets it! I’m always smiles and open arms… trusting, believing & loving… & would you believe that I get hurt? LOL! Geez! Instead of convincing myself, that I dont care… fuck them.. they're wa...